Sister Wives’Christine Brownis opening up about the pain she felt after hearing harsh words from herformer husbandKody Brown.

On Sunday’sSister Wives: One on Oneepisode, Christine discussed her reaction to finding out that Kody, 53, said he was not physically attracted to her.

“It was terrible to hear. And it’s super embarrassing,” admitted Christine, 50.

“I just got to thinking you know what? It really just goes both ways,” she continued. “I really just wasn’t attracted — after he said that I was kind of like, ‘Oh, well then I’m done. It’s over.’ It was almost a relief. I’m not going to keep fighting for this or trying if you’re not attracted to me. So everything that I’ve done for you and for the family means nothing.”

Kody has lost his sister wives at a rapid clip in the last few years: Christine and Kodyannounced their splitin November 2021 after more than 25 years of marriage. Sunday’s tell-all special also confirmd that Kody and second wifeJanelle Brownhadseparated. And the episode also revealed thatKody had ended his 32-year marriage to first wife Meri Brown.

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“This is the thing. I’d march his butt into a therapist so fast,” she said. “I would not allow him not to talk to me. I don’t allow that. We’re going to talk. We’re going to work this stuff through.”

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While Kody was initially in denial about Christine leaving their nearly 26-year marriage, he says his reaction was a result of long-standing issues in their relationship.

“I was ambivalent. I was trying to be stoic about it,” he said. “[Christine] is a game player. From the time we were married — manipulation, pouting, temper tantrums, just behavior things.”

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Sister Wivesairs Sundays at 10 p.m. ET on TLC.

source: people.com