It’s hard to forget the moment the world’s favorite, blonde-haired pop star took off her wig — telling the world, “she just doesn’t want to pretend anymore.”

It seems those words had more meaning to them than one could have known.

Forthe cover ofElle’sAugust issue,Miley Cyrusopened up about growing into the woman she is today, which meant leaving behind a girl she played on-screen and on-stage for the majority of her adolescent years, telling the magazine she couldn’t go on pretending any longer.

“I [wanted to stop being Hannah Montana] once I was 18 because it felt ridiculous. The minute I had sex, I was kind of like, I can’t put the f—ing wig on again,” she toldElle.“It got weird. It just felt like… I was grown up.”

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“One time I went backstage at Disneyland, and Peter Pan was smoking a cigarette. And I was like, ‘That’s me. That’s the kind of dreams I’m crushing,'” Cyrus, 26, added. “That’s how everyone felt with the bong video, but I’m not a Disney mascot. I’m a person.”

As a person who was once “ashamed” of her past as a child star, Cyrus brought her real-life experience toher recent role as Ashley O onBlack Mirror, telling the magazine she related to the character more than she expected.

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“The character is me. They twisted it up the way they always do, but the industry is already pretty dark,” Cyrus said of the episode, in which she plays fictional pop star Ashley O. “And at times, I’ve definitely felt like Ashley O. I still do. Making this record, I felt like Ashley O at times.”

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The “Wrecking Ball” singer also touched on her marriage, explaining that while she may be married in a traditional sense, her union with Australian actorLiam Hemsworthis something “unique.”

“I think it’s very confusing to people that I’m married. But my relationship is unique,” she toldElle. “And I don’t know that I would ever publicly allow people in there because it’s so complex, and modern, and new that I don’t think we’re in a place where people would get it.”

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“I mean, do people really think that I’m at home in a f—ing apron cooking dinner? I’m in a hetero relationship, but I still am very sexually attracted to women,” she told the magazine. “I made a partner decision. This is the person I feel has my back the most.”

“I definitely don’t fit into a stereotypical wife role. I don’t even like that word.”

source: people.com